Those around you are precious

Today has been kind of a hard day, but it has reminded me to not take those around me for granted. Life is so precious and sometimes I forget that. There are so many trivial things surrounding me that sometimes I forget how important my family and friends really are to me. Throughout the past couple weeks and especially today I have really been thinking about the amazing people in my life.

I am not very good at telling people how I feel and a lot of times I just shy away from saying anything at all. I don't answer the phone calls and I don't respond to the emails or messages to avoid expressing my feelings. I really appreciate the friendships I have and my family beyond words I just don't know how to express it all the time. It's something I know I need to work on and I am.

When a life is suddenly taken with such short notice it really makes you think. I looked at Rowan today and thought about what my life would be like without him. It is crazy to think that a little less then a month ago he wasn't in my life. I didn't have a little person to take care of and now I do and I couldn't imagine it any other way. Ryan and Rowan are my life. I thought about my parents and my brothers. They have gotten me to this point in my life and I couldn't thank them enough. I know at some point in my life they will pass but I just can't imagine how I will handle it. I thought of all my friends. They make me sane and have really taught me how to enjoy life.

I am kind of rambling here, but what I wanted to get at was that I love and appreciate everyone in my life. I know I don't say it enough but I love you all and am blessed to have you in my life.

Uncle Mike you will be dearly missed and to the rest of the Dunham family you are in my thoughts and I am blessed to have you in my life. I love you all.

-Nicki